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supposed to go climbing tmr. shall have to wake up early and things. coolz. then gonna drop by the vj funfair. wonder wad it'll be like. dont feel like blogging. survivor isnt as survivor-ish as its supposed to be. quite mild. wadeva. bye..
haha yu know wad, after wed training i am actually aching. havent felt the ache in a long time. i think i'm the only odacian aching la. haha. shit. shall suffer in my pain alone. haha.
today was bliss. tho i slacked off kinda during the stair climbing to accompany mel. but today was bliss. and jenga rocks like crazyyyyy. i love it la. the bearing down theory, knuckle method, and hooking around method. ahhaha. ROCKS. and sch is bearable once again..registered for sats... i love my class. wheeeeeeeeee.
today when mr chan started yelling his heart out at us during bio lecture, what he said really did hit something in me. its about time we started doing something for ourselves. they always say we can do it, but can we really do it?.. the 9, 10 A1s is history, what bout your future? i cant keep thinking that things are going to get better unless i do something about it. and then all of a sudden everything comes rushing up at you, and you feel pretty much drained. dont get me wrong, i'm not depressed, i'm not struggling. i may be confused, i may be slacking, i may be exhausted, but i still can see more or less clearly.
this is such a nice song, havent heard one in a very long time..
okay dance night is tmr! something to look forward to after a 5.10 day. and then, i'll tape survivor, come home and watch it, prepare my inaug wish thing if its not done by then, make sure satay is in place, and then sleep and look forward to a day of fun. intercepted by makeup bio prac. haha. crap. at 10 apparently. 10 to 12. not sure what i'm gonna do about that cos then i wont be able to run around w my group. okay nvm. confusing.
have yu ever had the feeling where, yu THINK yu know wads going on but you can't know for sure. but yu have like..some gut feel. yes. i'm having that right now. but well. i shant press it. tho, i'm thinking, it's definitely not a one way street here.
so i didnt go to school today. yeah. feeling better tho, ready for sch tmr. i basically slept the whole day away, sms-ed, watched the oc and tv, and slept some more. so there. now i'm feeling much better. life is good again, well, almost. guess i should go and do that gp compre of mine. and nmr. and. sigh. wadeva. bye guys.
the mldcs production yesterday was quite a success, i liked it, thought it was pretty good.
hello!..night hike yesterday was fun (: seemed a lot easier than last year's night hike, probably cos i was still quite happy, and walking w great pple, and of cos, it was a shorter route, slightly. i love ya'll odacians. and the radio, our saviour, and our craziness, our greater saviour, and all the roxy pple, the BEST (: pity a few pple couldnt go, like nizam yus daryl (boy and girl) n selina. oh weelllll. next year anybody? haha
sometimes second thoughts about things in your life just happen and yu're so determined that yu gotta sort things out. and then yu think again, and yu're like, no maybe not. how will yu ever know what's right and wrong in your life? yu'll never know unless the thing yu think is right goes wrong. so wad, yu're just supposed to take risks and hope they turn out good? and if they dont work out then yu're supposed to wad, learn from the experience?? wth. perhaps pple on earth should like not take risks at all. just live safe. but then. yu'll end up useless hopeless boring alone and successful to a very limited extent. but maybe that's just okay. as in. maybe pple can live with that. sigh. who knows.
sigh i dont think i wanna blog anymore. but hell who knows. maybe i'll change my mind.
so. the million pills worked. felt better today tho the stomach is still feeling a bit funny. but this feeling i've had before. its not a pukey feeling. anyway, today was a good day i guess. 2 more subj left to receive, bio n gp. oh well. hopefully they'll be fine. after all, its only common tests. yeah? and indeed, sometimes, work put in is not at all proportional to grades yu get. i wouldve rathered a better grade in chem than..say physics. perhaps. who knows. aiya. cant say. oh well. going to sleep soon. g'night all.
some things yu just cant get enough of. :)
hello!!! today was GREAT!!! i can still roll. well. 66.7 percent success rate. haha. and anyway, yeah today was great for other reasons too. pleasant day.
hello. got a..well. slightly below average grade for chem. i guess. narrowly missed chem r. hell. wonder wad i would have done if i'd been made to choose between chem r and chem s. sigh. wadeva. let's not talk about the -what ifs-. wadeva.
anyway, i think today was a decent day. i was more awake. tho i slept off during gp again, after i presented our group thing. ahha. sorry guys. delatable? haha. ermm. okay sorry bout that la. haha. and physics s. wad can i say it was the same. anyway, i am thankful for today's weather. it was really really good weather. i love it. in fact i loved wed too. training in the rain. funn. haha. (: okay shall go off now. i've watched all the OC episodes. at last. now i can patiently wait for the next one next week to come out in america. i'm no longer outdated. haha. and now i can mug. in peace. i think. well at least without thinking about going to watch the oc. hah.
okay shall keep this short. i've decided that i think i'm just gonna take things easy la. and not waste time slacking away. whee. and sleep more. haha. at night. i mean. yeah. not in sch. kay. i'm going off now. (: take kare all (: bye!
i think its abuot time i just stopped, and thought about everything i've done. the million things i've done wrong, right, have yet to discover if its right or wrong, the things i havent done.. everything.
i think i'll just sort out everything and begin to really think about my future. its about time i stop being afraid to do what i want, to dream for something i may not get. i need to think about where i wanna be one year from now, what i wanna do, how i wanna do it.
lemme sort it out. i'll get back to ya'll. maybe. or perhaps just come ask me, i may not even wanna blog about it. after all, it seems that sometimes my blog turns out to be random ramblings.
itll be okay.
band concert was good. nice music in the nice esplanade. g'night all. been a long day.
Train. When i Look to the Sky.
When it rains it pours and opens doors
That flood the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye
And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go
Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here
And every word I didn't say caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn't have before
And every sunset that we'll miss I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away
Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plain overhead
Instead it feels like it's impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by
And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me..
so inaug, followed by bbq, fun cum sleepover cum fun, no sleep, fun, and..play the next day. my weekend is a blast. yays. my class and odac rox. whee. k shall keep this short..quite tired la.
and the oc. ep 17, terrible ending. oh well.
anyway thanks to cheech, i have the next four episodes of THE OC all the way to 17. yu rock cheech. unfortunately, my mom's taking her plans of getting me to be awake in sch and sleep early at home a little too far. sigh. tmr's a short day, i do NOT need to sleep at 1130. i can handle myself. i'm 17. or so i think.
i want to be able to see thru pple and see all the answers to my questions. that's impossible. hey, You up there, take kare of my friends for me. i'll try my best. i love them and no matter what, they'll always be my friends, to say the very least.
sometimes i wish emotions were as easy as a simple yes or no but then again, perhaps even a yes or no may not be as simple as it seems.
so anyway, my bro got a player that can play pdtv-lol files! yay. so i watched episode eight of the OC just now..waiting to watch ep nine sooooon. yay. and then there's the malay production later. ahh. wad a nice slack day. i love it. i'm loving it. wonder wad ms teh is telling my parents right now. oh well. i'll find out later. haha. okay i dont quite feel like recounting the whole week, so i shall end of here. RAWR.
oh and i fell asleep after dinner reading, and missed the beginning of smallville. set my tape too late. so now tmr after the tv man fixes my darling tv, i'll only get to watch like...2/3 of smallville. sad. but then again, i get to watch survivor, friends, and the practice too. yessss. oh. deardeardeartv, why'd yu have to die on me.
i've posted the lyrics of this song before, but its a damn nice song..
"gravedigger, when yu dig my grave, could yu make it shallow, so that i can feel the rain.. gravedigger.."
anyway, sickly feelings overwhelm me. going to sleep now. g'night. hopefuully i wake up better, and ready for sch. armed with an MC, to blueslip if necessary. hopefully not. i slept so much just now. hope i can sleep now. bye.
BUT can i please inform the WORLD about something very important. i've invented a NEW WORD. which i am here to publicise. the word IS:
EVERYNOW. official definition: EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE POSSIBLE. most frequent context of usage: "i need to mug now. wait a minute, i mean, i need to mug EVERYNOW!!!!"
yes. feel free to use it everyone, from this moment onwards. EVERYONE, EVERYTHING, EVERYNOW. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
gonna go kayakg tmr. rocks. gotta update my membership. crap. 20 bucks. i think i'll sign up for one year. cos..i doubt i'd go kayaking next year, cos hopefully i wont be in singapore. like i told cheech. aiya. see how. wadeva. okay anyway, there's survivor tonight! rocks. it's at ten. dont get cheated. they moved it back to their normal timeslot. okay guys. i think my blog entry's starting to sound repetitive. with the -wadevas- and the -rocks-. i have nothing to say. except i hope things will work out for the better. btw i'm also gonna be online a lot less. this is like. self determination and parental pressure and brother's usage of comp is obviously now a priority to mine since he'll only get to use it when he's back from army. so. besides, coming online doesnt quite head me in the right direction esp like. academics wise. gotta stop. esp before the meettheparents session. sigh. wadeva. okay i sound like i'm turning towards muggerhood. i hope i am. sincerely. i hope i am. bye guys. will update sometime later. can't wait for kayaking tmr. i missed ya'll odacians on wed.. haha. okay i sound lame. okay but its true. okay bye. and can i say that my class is a great bunch. yes. byeee.